To Nepal and Back


Today marks the sixth month since the massive 7.8-magnitude earthquake rocked Nepal, a Himalayan nation in Southern Asia. It was also a turning point in my life because, it was my first deployment overseas to support a team of humanitarian workers during the very critical phase of the emergency response. Allow me to walk you through some memories and have a glimpse of what was it like to be there after (and during) the earthquake.

Cut 01: Two weeks?

The journey started with a phone call, the kind that could change your life forever. It was a call from my line manager asking if I have heard the news about the massive 7.8-magnitude earthquake that struck Nepal.  The disaster was all over the news, with terrible images of people, especially children, being pulled out from the rubble.  “We need someone to support the communication work. Will you be available to do it? You will be supporting from the regional office in Bangkok. If you are, we have to send you there by 8:00 tonight.”  It was morning of April 26, not even a full 24-hour after the earthquake jolted the country.


I scribble a lot. Whilst on the plane to Kathmandu, I imagined the things I need to do, and new things I wanted to do. Of course, I also added some dear-dairy notes, just to express my overwhelming excitement of the mission given to me.

I have been sent to an emergency situation before, right after the onslaught of typhoon Haiyan (read my Haiyan story here) and so deployment was nothing new. However, what makes this very different is that, this time, it’s not the Philippines. Whilst packing, one question kept hovering over my head, “How will I do it in a different country?”  Sure it would be difficult, but maybe I could try and give it my best shot. They said the deployment will only be for two weeks, that, I said, I can manage.

Working in Bangkok as support communication staff helped me witness the backstage work that happens during an emergency response. At morning meetings, I witnessed how our leaders from the regional level engineer the course of the emergency response, as well as hear immediately top-level discussions which greatly affect how the humanitarian community acts on the ground (and apologies for the humanitarian-lingo). In the afternoon, I am one of the first to receive updates from the field, and help craft the reports into a narrative useful for our leads. I was overjoyed upon seeing first photos of aid reaching survivors in Nepal and I remembered myself saying, “Para akong nanganak. (I felt like I just gave birth)– though, I did very little help compared to those on the ground.

Week one was almost finished and I received news that I might come home earlier. I felt a bit reluctant to leave, but I knew that it only meant that the team on the ground was up and running stable. However, in the afternoon, a new message came: “Bibs, the plans changed, you will be deployed to Nepal, tomorrow morning.” It came on the 30th of April, 3:00PM. (Surprised? No. Yes. No. Okay yes.)

Cut 02: Detour Diary

Day 01: “Oh! You’re not Nepali?”

They say that once on a plane to Nepal, never miss the chance to sit on the left window seat, because that’s where you’ll see the majestic mountain peaks of the Himalayas. I was on the aisle but the snow-capped Himalayan Mountains suddenly appeared on what I thought was just a bunch of cumulus clouds. Minutes before we landed, we flew very close to the ‘hills’, which resembled the high mountains I have seen in the Philippine Cordilleras. Upon landing, I saw tons and tons of aid waiting to be released from the airport. We were ushered into a jam-packed bus that will take us to the main building.


At the airport, we were greeted by this humanitarian guide board which included maps, the latest situation reports and the most important contact persons, numbers and coordinating online platform links. These aim to guide the new workers coming in to the mission field.

I was standing very close to two ladies who were speaking in plain Nepali; one was a Caucasian woman in her 50’s whilst the other a young Nepali lady. I could sense from their faces that they were talking about the impact of the earthquake and their loved ones who survived. Whilst talking, they were looking at me as though wanting to include me in the conversation; I pretended I understood. Suddenly, the Caucasian lady spoke to me in what appears to be a question about my family. She was almost teary-eyed, eager to listen to my story. But I had to break the news: “I am sorry ma’am, I do not understand. I am not Nepali.”  The lady laughed, and so as the other passengers who apparently were listening to the whole conversation. And then the comments flooded:

“Oh! You’re not Nepali?”
“It’s the first time I met a Filipina in Nepal.”
“When you go to the market, everyone will talk to you in Nepali.”
“But everyone will think you are a Nepali!”
“Oh, that’s going to be haaaaaard!”

It took us around an hour before finally riding a taxi to Lalitpur (Kathmandu) where the office is located. This area was far from the fault line and one could hardly see the impact, save the barren streets and closed shops that lined the highway. Upon reaching the office, I stopped by the lobby and saw some staff. A young woman had mistaken me to be Nepali:
“What country are you from? You look like a staff’s sister.”
“You look Nepali. We should give you a Nepali name.”

It’s very unusual welcome from my beloved Nepali people, but those remarks made me comfortable and confident that I can easily blend in the local team.  I hoped that I could be my best to help them.

Day 02: “Namaste!”

I woke up very early eager to see the view from our hotel’s window. We were housed at the 7th floor, and from my window, I could clearly see the sunrise. “Namaste. Sunrise over Kathmandu, around 5:30AM today.” It has always been a dream to work outside the comforts of my country, and I was very thankful to have this break to serve in a different country. Visiting Nepal was also one of my top wishes, and here I am. Magandang umaga Nepal.


Sunrise over the skyline of Kathmandu during my second day in the country.

Day 03-07: Aftershocks and our work taking shape

may03Everyday, several aftershocks jolted the region. In the office, we have this alarm system which produces loud warning beeps once it detects a tremor. This meant that everyone in the office should move outside and wait until it stops. Sometimes, the tremors would last for 5 seconds. One thing I noticed is that earthquakes create a rolling sound and sends vibration that I could feel from my feet. We were working non-stop and I could feel our energies were slowly dropping low. However, what makes us come alive again is whenever we see the impact of our work through photos and stories shared to us daily. Another thing that we always look forward to is the afternoon tea brewed by one of the amazing staff from Nepal! Every time I received my share, I have this little emoji in my head saying “This made my day!” :)

Day 08-10: A series of why’s, FB Status and getting to know Nepal

newspaper_dhadingFacebook Status 1: “God is God. Because he is God, He is worthy of my trust and obedience. I will find rest nowhere but in His holy will that is unspeakably beyond my largest notions of what he is up to.” (Elisabeth Elliot). 13 days nonstop. I’m learning so much, though it’s not easy. Things happening rapidly.

Every morning, a newspaper is distributed to each room.Reading the newspaper in the morning gives me a larger view of the overall response, as well as peek into how the local people and authorities perceive the situation. Every day, they also feature some testimonies from survivors living in far-flung areas; those places which I eagerly wanted to see, but just had not the chance to do it.

Facebook Status 2: 

kumariI have never been to the sites, mostly stay at the office for support here at Kathmandu. I guess the longest ride was just 20 mins from the airport. What i like most here is the food– vegetables, mashed potatoes, lentils, soya meat, buffalo momo– all mixed with chili and curry. The tomato chutney is just the best. And the milktea they serve 2x a day at the office makes me sooooo happy. During lunchtime, everyone eats at the pantry. Life continues here at KTM.

The first day i came here, i found a portrait of Kumari at the airport. It said “Kumari, a Living Virgin Goddess”. We pass by some small temples everyday, most of them brown and old. People here are warm, and they make me feel at home. i wish I could take photos but I don’t understand why I don’t feel like taking any. Maybe, there’s still this lingering sadness everywhere here. More than 7,800 people have died, and many lost their homes, and the memories of their ancestors.

Facebook Status 3:
I just learned 3 minutes ago that when the earthquake struck, the people here were celebrating a festival for Rato Machindra, the god of Rain. So it is believed that in a month’s time, monsoon season will come, sending rains to the mountains and valley farms. There’s a big pressure on everyone to find a secure place to stay, although, many have started to rebuild homes, even just with thin tarpaulin and wood.

Facebook Status 4:
“Raining today here at KTM.  I miss home.”

Facebook Status 5:
“Official na, ubos na ang english ko. Two weeks pala ang kaya ng utak ko. #‎nicetoknow

Day 11: Out in the field, finally!

For the first time (in forever), I was able to join the team in one of the evacuation sites called Tudikhel Camp located at the North Road, the very heart of Kathmandu. At the moment, there are still around 1500 people residing in the area. One of my co-workers (local staff) came up to me and said, “The children were expecting you to speak in Nepali. You resemble us. That’s your problem.”  I have a nice problem. Haha. I wrote something about it here:

Day 12: Another earthquake

Facebook Update 1:
“It is 1:25 now here at Kathmandu. Around 30 mins ago, we experienced a terrible shaking. I was at the basement when i suddenly felt my table was moving. The crows were noisy, and the earthquake alarm was very violent. I hurriedly ran up, to the ground floor and saw my colleagues running out the main door as well. I went out and saw the crows flying, panicking, and making violent sounds. The building right in front of us was shaking, i could see the tanks at the rooftop moving. It did not stop until after 30 seconds. I was standing beside the car, and then i held on one of the posts. Everyone was dumbfounded by this. My colleagues began calling their families but they could not contact. The lines are clogged with phone calls. They say it was between 7 to 7.4. People were saying this is not an aftershock. This is a new earthquake. Now, it is 1:30 pm here and we are still outside the office, we cannot go back inside yet. Some were crying out of fear. As of 1:30 pm). It’s 2:05 pm now, there might be some aftershocks later. Our teams in gorkha, sindhupalchok, nuwakot, dhading and here at ktm valley are safe. There are new collapses and might be new casualties.” I wrote a separate story about it too, following a fellow worker whom I called Didi Chinky.

Facebook Update 2: 
may12_EQEach of my co-worker was given tarpaulin for tonight. We are expecting aftershocks. I learned that the epicenter is near the north-eastern side, between Kathmandu Valley and Mt. Everest region. In Sindhupalchok, we heard that there were buildings that collapsed. Some search and rescue teams are active on the ground. I am expecting many people will sleep on the streets tonight. I can say that we are all afraid. there’s something inside me that’s still shaking, even long after the 7.3 tremor is gone.

(To be continued)

From South Cotabato to Isulan in Sikwati and Black Ink

I was at the BalikBukid (Back to the Farm) Cafe in Davao City when I imagined my friend, Babelyn, whom I met some 6 years ago, during the first time I went to the province of Ambalgan in South Cotabato. She was my first Muslim friend, and was very much like a younger sister to me. I fondly called her ‘anak’ (my child) because she reminded me so much of younger self– quiet and often shy, but always smiling and ready to learn. What’s so special about her is that, even though she her left eye is blind, she could clearly communicate her feelings just by looking at her vibrant face. I hope I could see her again. Maybe, I can go back to Ambalgan one of these days. This sketch was made with sikwati (cocoa chocolate) and black ink. I am beginning to like pouring delicious stuff on my journal.
I wrote in Tagalog: “Mula sa South Cotabato hanggang sa Isulan, alaala kita kapatid ko. Sana ay mabuti ang iyong kalagayan.” (From South Cotabato to Isual, you are in my thoughts my sister. I hope that you are well) 


I find it a bit silly to post this whilst sandwiched between tonnes of deadlines, but, I just need to share this not so important thing I discovered last night. I have been on earth for nearly 28 years and never thought I have been pronouncing my name wrong. Imagine. When I was young I was often asked how I got my name, why it sounds different, and how come I spell it with a G. On my side of the planet, the alphabet does not even include the sound “v” which I have, twice: Genevi(e)ve.

“You just call me ‘jhenna-viv’,” that’s how I introduce my self, to which many of my classmates would reply, “Ah, ‘dhye-ne-bib’. Such a Filipino way to say it. Hard ‘Dhye’  and hard ‘bib‘. And then, followed by another question: “Where did you get your name?” Mother said, she got it from a dictionary. “Kinuha ko yung dictionary may pangalan ng mga bata sa likuran, tapos, tinuro ko yung pangalan, nagustuhan ko”. (I took a dictionary which had a list of baby names at the back, and pointed to one and I liked it.):  Genevi(e)ve.

I am not so sure if you feel the same way, but I get goosebumps every time a stranger calls me by my whole name. It’s so personal, so piercing and I feel like this stranger can see me to the bones. That was the reason I changed the way I introduce myself when I entered college: “Just call me Gen”, and so they did. But I never liked ‘Jen’ (oops sorry), that’s not me. And so I changed again to Bibs, now that’s a very simple, forgettable name. And it’s quite Filipino, so that’ll do.

But in my work, people often remember you by your email address, and so everyone calls me Genevi(e)ve. Around three weeks ago, I had another person asking me “Is that a common name in your country?”, to which I replied “No.” And he said, “You are lucky.” (Well apparently, his name is ahhhm, just-one-syllable-you-are-everyone, Ahmm).

But it was only last night I paid close attention to my name. And then, barely a month before I turn 28, I found out, I’ve been calling myself wrong all along: It’s “Jhan-v-yev

Amuyao’s Kanyao (Prayer)

I’ve been trying to weave her story but I can’t seem to find the right words to start the tale. Originally, I wanted to draw the goddess Amuyao, daughter of the great Cordilleran creator-god Kabunyian. (Mount) Amuyao is quite famous among mountaineers in my country, as it is the second highest peak in the island of Luzon. But, there’s a very beautiful tale behind the name.

The first time I went to Batad Rice Terrace in Banaue, Ifugao, an elder from the community told me a story about her, which is quite different from the other story I saw online. I cannot remember the whole tale, but I tried to make a different version. Writing this for my own memory (sorry).

Once, there was a great el nino (drought) in the valleys of the Cordillera. It was January, the beginning of the planting season. The rice terraces, once filled with flowing water has become parched, and the earth white, cracked… (middle of the story still under construction, haha)… but the farmers, out of desperation went to Amuyao, the goddess. Amuyao climbed up the hill, stood still and lifted her hands towards the sky. She looked up and sang a kanyao:

Kabunyian, you have been good to us

Let my song reach the soles of your feet
And touch the garments of your robes
Whisper to the rain, 
and to the northern wind, “Be still”
Fill our parched land, like milk flowing
And bring us life, 
Remember the promise of our navels

(Photo: Amuyao calling out to the winds, making a kanyao or prayer-chants to come and bring the rain. In faith, she wore a Kalinga raincoat made of dried leaves/grass. She wears a tapis– woven garment of the olden times in red-white-black colors.)

Didi Chinky

The spicy scent of curry and fennel wafted towards me as I climbed up to the fifth floor. Every lunch time, all staff gather at the pantry, where I find her, busily serving each one with her usual recipe– dahl bhat (lentils-rice), and chutney. I never got to ask her name (or maybe I had), but all I remember is that in my mind I call her didi chinky (older sister chinky), for her eyes were so tiny especially when she smiles. But there was a time when her smile faded, and her chinky eyes disappeared in tears.


It was 12th of May, just a little over two weeks since the great earthquake shook the central and western parts of Nepal. Many people were struck dead, and brick houses turned into piles of rubble leaving thousands homeless, including didi. At around 11:30 in the morning, the earthquake alarm rang violently, everyone rushing to go out from the building. As I walked out from the main door, I saw crows fleeing to the south, also making loud noise. Everyone was outside, quiet, looking at the buildings around us, observing the tanks from the rooftops sway. We were definitely afraid. The shaking stopped after some 30 seconds. When it did, most of the Nepali staff, including didi tried to contact their family. I asked her if she was able to call them, but she just frowned. Her hands were shaking as she grabbed on to another co-worker and started crying.


“That was strong. It was very close to the first one. Maybe that is around 7-magnitude.” 
“They say it is a different earthquake.”
“Maybe, the epicenter is up north, because the crows were fleeing to the south.”
“It was very very close to the first one. And it was long.”


After some time, we learned that indeed it was a different earthquake, and the epicenter was located somewhere between Kathmandu Valley and Mt.Everest. People feared that many buildings damaged by the first one, were completely thrown down by this second huge tremor. I wish I could tell you more about what happened around (and inside me) that day, but I just can’t put them into words. But, ever since that happened, I could not erase didi’s crying face on my mind. I tried to draw it, so I could just forget a portion of the memory, and in this way, share her story too. Didi, and many other people are still in desperate condition now. Even though their tears have dried, sadness lingers in every corner of Nepal.